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網誌日期:2007-12-21 10:13
過幾天要用來塗皮膚了....

學日文.... 要記起在六歲時住荃灣心想的, 要講的態度... 易上幾仟倍了...

my thoughful, .... never tell .....

i want to fly over to taiwan or somewhere u never can catch me up where i can sing and can play musical instruments , where having nice friends , as nicer as in some bars in HK...

never approach any sly person....  .......but hope can disappear in such crowded place which forced me feeling annoying ....   they never cared about  a beautiful girl's heart aching came up by their rude attitudes and not considerate words just telling you by showing you that he or she looking down upon u to get something like very advantage for themselves..... actually they are so into big shit world not match this thoughtful person.   never pratronize my heart, and my belly is not so big for his bullying behaviour even for once time, many times they intended hurting ....
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and so called much ........   also seeing ----

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所謂大劑的中藥, 都只是這一年幾浸在燕麥中大劑的吃....  吃不了中藥, 可能要試一次喝八珍湯.

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from now on , i will write the blog in English, plus limitation of Japanese language....  maybe...

never allowed any person to destroy myself anymore...  never effort to get any person's brightness reflecting on me in offices, never take it , never try to be a lower person as much as they can do alot of ....   who saying about so true words for he/her own reality worlds, for he/her own life, never try to be a scholar... , but trying to pursuing after ..... , but perform human being good nature .., once they tried to touched my finger i so relutant to their acting, i m not born to take good advantage of me and hurting me....  

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when i found good people in Tsuen Wan, besides my family and schoolmates , some childish neibourhood (my today's friends too), that is Shanghaiese and Japanese, Foreigners
, no doubt that i want to go to Taiwan, i have heritance of Foriengers cultures in Bars about love life (my self characters are much similiar --likewise to them, much likemine?? but was once born in wrong place that made me come to HK such fucking place).... there is no turning back indeed...

here, i can hear fuckingly rude young men vomit his fucking words , that because i now living in sham shui po poorer district ????   i used to be hurted into crowded public places... you can see they pushingly looking into my eyes while i avoiding their eyes insight my eyes, when your belly is gone , almost match 22 inches they women inside estate can barking on you...     people see women getting good advantage, they males can be as much ruder as they can do on me, though the much elegant girl gorgeous girl is only one , among the lower poor person group, they can as much hurting to fulfil themselves as possible...

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i remembered my life before my at 6 , people are so so nice and clever and brave, here in HK full of chasing stronger rude women instead of pursuing getting as much good advantage from younger girls by making them happier into human being, not down to earth.  so they are mostly said to be not my typed.    when i was 6, i occationally met some Indian stranger in streets on the way school, they are nicer, i admired eyes on them , they politely eyes on me too.    not those hk guys are so hashed ???  insting ??  eyes to let you know u must let them to hurt not to care but hurting...

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i promised i ever swore , after yr 2006, i never pick up any hk grew up male , they are extremely lower person , once they approach because they show how they want to get my surrending ?? people of girls also letting me down they not to care..

they hurting making forigners' ....    well, there is no victory , but whose possess mecy?  sympathizing heart , seeing the elegance is winning they , having good times while mingling with... of those Japanese , Korean (those are super beautiful ) group,

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on sexual aspect still forigners are winning,  Yes, i needed to be punished ... by telling me that Chinese is not nice to be played ... well, One of my Friends is Super beautiful , all of girls into her (nicer looking than me) , she said that she not like HK Chinese (she is HK girl, was born in HK), she nicely told me that HK males are into Big breasts (big balls) girls / women that she having smaller boots , but i don't agree with this, because i had having big breasts since 15.    only schoolmates won't hurt me , outside people i should beware of their bullying me ..


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that of course of that they are lower, almost 1/10000000000  is can acceptable , acceptance of 1/100000000000000 , that he having good conditions that he not need to do rude behaviours against the weakness of me (said to be easily to be hurted in Chinese Cantonese dialect form)

i still wearing long faked hair wearing 0 degree glasses strive (effort)??? to get off of them , i have right to survive uprightly without their knocking down, ...

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when the phone is ringing , i don't know who 's calling , maybe girl schoolmates , maybe those stronger people .....
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i had had enough of those rude shouting ... outside,

i can be stronger, i can be live stronger, my heart will grew on ... once their voice can be eliminate ... thanks God, those lower person can 't vomit their cow sound to my stroye (?) place,

once if i go to the chapel, that means all of ..... die, coz i will lost so many..... so much... how can i go to the chapel, once my colleage who she invited me to go to chapel to believe to ???? during X'mas time when i was walking at Translation Department of Urban Council in Wanchai, how can i telling them that where is God?  how God made so poorer person such as mostly of hk ugly , they never care about their outlooking but jealously on ...so i don't understand that ugly why they so happy when hurting people
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i have forgotten to bring the earpuff, so suck of today whether above my head la... god bless me beautiful girl, one day i can seek many upright person , now they outside shouting rudly la plus rude women la... when go outside i can insistingly away them , awaying their rude attitudes , ....

when they started shouting , they even shouting this:  call the police (because the stroke person screaming loud at home), wa~ i kept this - never interested in any HK Chinese, not let them to hurt me, i can hurt myself brow up myself life, i can spoiling myself by going with Many forigners  one by one  for every new night at Lan Kwai Fong, Bars at Wanchai, ......   as they taught me this ... i will not be regret when i die....       during my having skin diseases , i have learnt many  life philosophy ,  denied about Chinese tranditional thoughtful, i m a Home Girl, seldom go out excepting go to work and after work back to home, i was seeking about my life man, but it was wrong , totally wrong, i learning about their rude behaviour so that i can be understand as good foriengers can do as ......  i should go to take some cert. even degrees , because.......  i m totally wrong in Chinese thoughtful, if i marry with any boy in Taiwan this will be great that he will treat me nicer, but HK, i should .....      foreigners eyes are equal to anyone, i like what their way to people in some.....


what i have wrong that i posses good condition outside, i was taking very good effort on maintaining my cells for over 30 years , that i look like at age of 20 , no doubt i had beautiful mother , my mother was having very nice sculptured , .....

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when my childish my speaking ways something like Japanese attitudes......
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